Friday, August 29, 2008

When Life Gives You Lemons...

... feed them to your baby and watch the face that he makes. Don't worry, it was only a little piece. I've been keeping myself SO busy, but its been good for me. Some say it keeps you out of trouble, and I suppose that may be true. Volleyball try-outs started on the 11th of this month so that's what I've been up to ever since - well, along with all the other stuff still. Jorel is still growing and being so funny! He is crawling so fast now and loves to be chased around and wrestle with anyone who will - especially Grandpa Ron. He's starting to take control of his balance and getting so ready to walk. He's now 10 months and 1 week old and time sure isn't slowing down! He's such a good baby even with those stubborn front teeth that just don't seem to want to cut through his sore little gums. It breaks my heart to not be able to just pull them through! Just knowing that he is so uncomfortable - but he is such a little trooper!!

I finally have gotten to wear my watch because I got it sized - isn't it a beaut? My sis got it for me for my birthday and I really like it. Also this last weekend my friend Derek came down again. He's always nice to see and spend time with. I've known him since we were both in 7th grade and have been friends ever since. We went to his parents house for dinner on Sunday and had some shrimp alfredo pasta and man it was good! We also had our first volleyball games Friday and Saturday, so I spent about 14 hours in the gym for those 2 days. That gets tiring, but the team played pretty well. Tonight was their first home game against Delta and they got a win in 4 games. I was coaching the sophomores and we ended up winning in 4 games too. So really, that's pretty much all I've been up to - plus there's always school but nothing too exciting and nothing too dull :) so its been going pretty good...
At In N' Out

Just being so cute

Playing Peek-a-Boo
Derek and Me
Clearly not amused....

Friday, August 8, 2008

Running in Circles

I went running again today and it was a little better. I'm using the excuse that it's the added weight of the stroller... am I right? :) Anyway as you can see, my face gets bright red when I run - but not everywhere. My forehead, cheeks and chin get SUPER red, then, about where a clown would wear his white lip makeup, I stay pretty white. You can't really see it that well in the picture, but it's there - I promise. I've gotten that way ever since I was little. Most of my coaches have to ask me if I'm okay, or if I'm going to pass out. Well, I haven't passed out yet, so I think it's safe. Someone I knew once told me its how I show stress... who knows? I don't think it's going to change any time soon. Jorel really loves to be in that stroller. We pass a lot of interesting things that he likes to look at. He didn't fall asleep until the end of the not so long jog, but none-the-less, I think he enjoys it. He's such a good little trooper in whatever we seem to be doing.

The only problem with running today is the fact that I thought that our coaches meeting was at 2 instead of 10, so I missed it.... oops! I ran up to the high school to get the scoop and coach just needed to tell me times of all of our stuff next week, so it wasn't a big deal, thank heavens!

I did recently purchase new running shoes, that I love! Having a higher arch, I needed some shoes with better support. I also got new socks with some arch support in them that I also love. The shoes are the Nike+ kind, so with my iPod and the adapters, I know how far I run, how many calories I've burned, how long I ran, etc. I think it's pretty darn cool. I have an armband that goes with it so the adapter fits in.


And can anyone tell me what this extra little bump is on my leg? I've noticed it since high school and have yet to figure out what it is... it's squishy.
Jorel also got his new bigger boy car seat. He seems to like that pretty well too.
And this kid and his tongue are out of control! He licks everything!
Tata for now.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Clap

Jorel started to clap a couple of days ago, and I just think it's the cutest thing! He's learning so much and it's amazing! (I'm sure all you mom's out there already know this) But really, just watching the kid learn something new EVERY day is a miracle in its self.
video
Yesterday my mom and I went to the Canyons softball complex to watch Ron play some softball. Well, we got there and the weather was okay. Then it got REALLY windy. Then the rain started coming... We found some shelter, but Mom and I decided to leave because we didn't want Jorel sitting in the wind too long. As soon as we got Jorel inside the car, the rain just started to POUR down. It was a good thing we left when we did! Anyway, I really just wanted to share pics, so here ya go :)

At the Canyons


Also, today, I went running for the first time in a very long time and I've come to conclude that I haven't been this out of shape in a very long time... whew! It was tough... and that's weird for me. Oh well, got to start again somewhere right?

Memories Anyone?

MEMORIES:
1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory about me, or that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember! (hopefully you remember something nice!)

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Inside Look at my Single Mom Life - Kinda...

I go through phases where I get to thinking about my life... How did I get here? Well, if you want to know, you can read on, so just a warning, this may get messy. :) My life has taken some quite interesting turns, but the most recent ones seem to be the most dramatic and the most life changing. I am so blessed to be where I am - the support that I have from my family and friends is more than I could ask for. They could have simply pushed me aside with the choices that I have made, but they chose to stay. Without them, I don't think I would've made it! God gives us some interesting choices in life, and I look back wondering why this plan was laid out for me and why I chose to take this path. Some things may be beyond my control, but ultimately, the choices that I made were all mine. I've always believed that every thing happens for a reason - although I still haven't figured a lot of them out! I was blessed with the most beautiful child, and why I deserved it, I'm still not sure.

For those of you who don't know my situation, here's a little insight, I guess. I had been off at college for 5 years - playing softball and working on my math degree - moving home a year ago after I graduated because I became pregnant from a guy I had been dating from school out in Indiana. I was done playing softball and I guess I was looking for "the one." No such luck. He wasn't it. So I continue to look. So far, Jorel's dad hasn't been involved at all - sometimes making promises that he can't seem to keep, even just a phone call... but anyway, I'm done holding on. Not that I thought we would have a relationship or anything because I don't want one with him, but giving him the opportunity to be a dad is quickly fading away. Whoever is willing to take me on along with this awesome kid of mine - is worth keeping around and I know whoever it is will be willing to be Jorel's dad for the long haul. I know it may be an awkward situation, but hopefully worth working through. Jorel's grandparents out in Indiana have been involved and have been wonderful! Along with his aunt in Texas - he has a couple of cousins out there as well. They've all been a great support and someone else to turn to if need be. I hope that Jorel can meet them soon.

After moving home I went through a point where I had to really sit back and take a look at where my life was taking me. Going through moments of soul searching and even pity parties for myself - What would I do? I knew my life was about to change drastically and I was terrified. First of all I was scared to give birth - ouchies! But that was really the least of my worries... My life would never be the same! I tried to take one day at a time and was on my knees a lot hoping to get the answers to some questions. I think some answers are still on their way, but a lot of my decisions this far weren't made lightly and needed some extra assurance. Praying for strength to make the right ones found me really turning to God for help. He really helped me through. He has blessed my life more than I know, and I thank Him for that.

I think the hardest part of all of this was the fact that I had let my standards slip out from under me. I made promises to myself when I was young that things like this wouldn't happen. But, as my friend would say - Life happened. And that it did! It was a process to accept who I had become because it wasn't where I had planned to be in my life. However, I wouldn't change a thing. With the lessons that I have learned and the places I have been and the places I'm still going to go - I have no regrets. I now know that I am an even stronger person than I used to be and that I can accomplish anything that I have my mind set on. My step-dad, along with the rest of my family helped to remind me a lot that I'm not damaged goods and I still deserve the best. Thanks Ron. And with this kid, how could I even think so? :) Even with the twists and turns that life has thrown at me and the ones that are still to come, I'm still trucking a long. Sorry to those who made it through this spill, but thanks for listening... Life throws us some curve balls, we just need to learn how to hit them.